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| Same old you;solely letters never actions,Saying you'd be better;when i'm not there, you're just like no other.It's easy to be said than done.So what's the point of telling me all these when you've never changed?When some things are gone, they'd hardly return.Why throw it away when you have it;and cry so badly after you've lost it?I'm sad, I cry, all because I thought I was a fool;never because you were gone.After those fucked up games, I've never felt for you anymore.23rdJan'11 ; 8:30pmIf that's not enough nonsense, I don't know what is.
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| Dont come and act sad in front of me. Happy copying what i do. =DDOh, go socialise more and see who you fall in love with.People talk you go chap chap chap in more. Okay?Good luck! =DDSo what if you are putting in effort?Sooner or later you will flare up again.Go woo some other girls la dont act one "I dont need anyone." and "I wont."Dont come in front of me and act this girl that girl soso not pretty you dont like.Dont think your eyes small i cannot see through hor.Time will tell la hor?Go flirt more, thats your forte.See, aint i acting evil now? =DD17thDec'10 ; 4:39pmYou still like me like that? | | |
| Added a post yesterday night but it went missing, it was Daddy's birthday;
Me:-grabs his hand, throw the phone aside- Lai, Happy Birthday~
Daddy: -woke up with a start-
Me: lao le lao le lao le!
Daddy: -laughs- come i kiss you!
Me: -runs away- wo bu yao wo bu yao wo bu yao!!!
Daddy: -give chase-
-fin-
Goodbye to youNo more fights, no more stress,I hope you're contented.I'm finally gone, vanished from your life;I hope you're happy.You'll have all the space, time, freedom that you want.I hope you're enjoying what you have now.Everything was exhausting, fake, insincere.I was hoping the chances I gave made you come around;Time and time again you turn it down.You said you're sorry,I'll tell you, I didn't buy any of it.If you're really sorry,We'll probably smile again.If you know what's sorry,I wouldn't be here.I was dumb, foolish enough to try everything countless times,Thinking you would change, change the way things are but not yourself.You refused, thinking what I want was to change you.No you got it wrong.They'll tell me, if she really loves you she'll come back;I said no, it's cos she loved me that's why she chose to give up.That's love to her, avoiding reality and coming up with excuses.You think I'll believe?No, I ain't dumb.They said she was immature for love;Well I said maybe.Simple things teenagers understood, seemed to be an alien language to her.I guess it wasn't me,it's just her. I've wasted all these time,Time I thought could make the best out of us,You make assumptions,However blaming me for it.When I try to helpYou told me you ain't dumb.When I try to be nice,You told me there isn't a need to.And they'll tell me it's her ego,I told them she said no.They say they've seen her,I don't have to worry bout taking the blame as the bad guy.I give up being nice, probably being evil was the right thing to do, the thing that would make people stay, make them love you more. I guess I shan't be nice anymore. It hurts being nice. I have to live and understand life all over again. My common sense was screwed for the past year. I need to hang out with normal people, people who are totally different from me but have normal minds like mine. I'm lost and I need guidance. But who will be here? No one.13thDec'10 ; 4:04pmYou're not sorry... | | |
| Why is it that whenever everyone around me is happily attached or found someone they like, the same old fucking shit happens to me again? This is like a cycle it happens everytime.
Although I've always told a few of them bout my thoughts, I didnt know it will happen so soon. Though i know it will happen one day, one fine day. I've already foreseen it coming. Well, not going to do anything bout it anymore. Feels like I'm the one at fault every single time. Yes, I might portray myself as the bad guy. But at the end of the day, only those that truly know me will understand. Go ahead and tell everyone how hurt you are and how nice you are and how stressed or depressed you have been that made you this way. If they believe you, congrats, you fooled them once again. I'm just gonna keep mum and move on. Your the nicest fuck on earth. Proven by everyone you call 'friends'. Happy living your life pleasing people. Hopes everyone vote you for President one day. =)
Go To Hell Seriously,
Enno
10thDec'10 ; 7:46pm
I'm fine btw. | | |
| 2011 is nearing, i hope it'll be a good year with lesser tears, lesser angry moments, more fun, more joy, more nonsense, and also to disppear from everyone i know. Almost everyone i know.
-Unable to forget your past, you blame it on me.
-When I asked you bout it, you told me you forgot.
-When you mentioned bout your past and I thought you've already forgotten bout it, you told me you are not suffering from memory loss.
Some humans ah. Really ah last warning.
And, I know very well that you want to flee, I'm waiting for that sentence you once said so effortlessly. Say it again and I'll grant you your wish. No worries. I'll disppear. I know I will and I know I want to. So, goodbye fellow human.
9thDec'10 ; 2:26pm
Lost hope. | | |
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